"It's not that I - I mean, it doesn't have to do with him, it has to do with me being in that situation for years," House said. "It's also why... I hated if I made you feel that way. I know you said you were okay with it but it was still tearing me up. Because I know what it's like."

He looked down at the table. "I don't know how to make all of this up to you. It's just a fucked up way to start a relationship, and I understand why you might want to... not."